Monday, October 27, 2008
Weekend
Well, weekend, nothing much to talk about
well, as usual, a plain and bored weekend plus tiring
my bro came to my crib again, haha quite happy coz my lil niece now can turn her body =D and tend to laugh, hehe.. dammit i plan to take my nieces photos, but on sunday, my house being rushed by 3 families which r our relatives, so.. i dun really have a chance to do the thing.. and i was so tired and exhausted and i broke a record, din sleep for 24 hours without any drugs assist, lol
well, today, my fren gimme a phone call.. and i am force to go back to my uni @_@ haha, got assignment dammit
well gtg.. c ya guys soon.. real soon =P
cheers : Asakura shaman, Vergo The Cursed
well, as usual, a plain and bored weekend plus tiring
my bro came to my crib again, haha quite happy coz my lil niece now can turn her body =D and tend to laugh, hehe.. dammit i plan to take my nieces photos, but on sunday, my house being rushed by 3 families which r our relatives, so.. i dun really have a chance to do the thing.. and i was so tired and exhausted and i broke a record, din sleep for 24 hours without any drugs assist, lol
well, today, my fren gimme a phone call.. and i am force to go back to my uni @_@ haha, got assignment dammit
well gtg.. c ya guys soon.. real soon =P
cheers : Asakura shaman, Vergo The Cursed
in the mind of the cursed at..5:35 AM
0 people in the crowd heard my words
0 people in the crowd heard my words
Thursday, October 23, 2008
hmm..
well, on the other day.. i fall asleep at 8 pm then sleep till 3 am! OMG, haha, i got a test this morning, so i woke up by 3 then go shower, pray and study
well.. nothing much to cover <<<(coz actually wanna slack)
so just memorize some formulas and study the question pattern
then suddenly rain oh.. so cold.. i nonstop shivering
plus, no sweater, i have to cover my body with my blanket
shivering this time, but still carve my lame smile lol
look at my hair, haha, i like this hairstyle, but seldom get it lolx,
Look at my hair !! i said look at my hair !!
haha, well, after my head saturated, i do some exercise, since so cold, i do some warm up.. lame hahaha
haha, sajer jer action lolx
hmm, all tests is out and had finished, so now.. waiting for final exams
quite scared lolx, hope i dun have to repeat any paper T_T
today test quite ok, but just out abit when i cudnt remember the formula, arghh.. but nvm lar, just a small portion, but still.. gonna make me lose marks =(
well.. nothing much to cover <<<(coz actually wanna slack)
so just memorize some formulas and study the question pattern
then suddenly rain oh.. so cold.. i nonstop shivering
plus, no sweater, i have to cover my body with my blanket
shivering this time, but still carve my lame smile lol
look at my hair, haha, i like this hairstyle, but seldom get it lolx,
Look at my hair !! i said look at my hair !!
haha, well, after my head saturated, i do some exercise, since so cold, i do some warm up.. lame hahaha
haha, sajer jer action lolx
hmm, all tests is out and had finished, so now.. waiting for final exams
quite scared lolx, hope i dun have to repeat any paper T_T
today test quite ok, but just out abit when i cudnt remember the formula, arghh.. but nvm lar, just a small portion, but still.. gonna make me lose marks =(
in the mind of the cursed at..9:07 PM
0 people in the crowd heard my words
0 people in the crowd heard my words
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Plagiarism Plague
A million miles
Chorus( Siti Nurhaliza )
How love can ever be
Right before my eyes
Still a million miles away from me
Verse 1 ( Malique )
They say love is blind, I say it blinds you
Tempts you off your sanity, abide by mind rules
The truth behind the myth it lies in our reality
Love is just a four letter word that’s sung in melody
To complete formality, you hear it when the ballads breathe
Every couple wants to be the next Cleo and Anthony
Or Clyde and Bonnie, or Frank butler and Annie
Mumtaz and Shah, Gina Montana and Manny
But this ain’t no love epic, I’m just a hopeful skeptic
Mischievous thoughts made poetic now spit it on record
I’m not in love with cha, I’m just in love at cha
Distant admiration, link and spoil the whole picture
I betcha a mil, you dancin’ in a million minds
A million times you handshakin’ from a million miles
And put a million smiles, a million different stories
And how we diff a million miles is self explanatory
Chorus
Verse 2 ( Joe Flizzow )
I sing this lullaby, forbidden love sitting before my eyes
My heart is screaming although nobody can hear my cries
Wishing on a star as I look into the night
Say a little prayer only God can understand my plight
Glimpses of her sight, flashing in my mind
Although she near the distance seems like a million miles
Somebody told me once that patience is a virtue
And true love is worth waiting for although it might just hurt you
And if it comes right back, that means it’s truly destined
I promise to hold back the tears, never say never
And I know you thinking of me all through out your endeavours
And if its part of His plans, one day we’ll be together
A few things last forever, so I write this poem
A lot of times, you won’t miss it right until it’s gone
And though I soldier on, these feelings in my heart
Will never change ‘cos I loved you from the start
Chorus
Verse 3 ( Malique )
We seen a lot of come
We seen a lot of go
But we ain’t seen a lot of stars who got a lot of soul
And keep their feet to the ground
Despite a lot soul truly unforgettable like old Nat Cole
It ain’t even about your look your style is debonair
The voice that stuns the nation when it comes on air
Expectations of intimacy was never there
But it would be nice to swap a couple hellos with the funny stares
But you just smile dumbfound when you come around
But little hushes now silence is the perfect sound,
Or whether this is fun or play ya
Just holler at your boy a million miles away
Chorus
" i used to say "i don't believe in love". but then i grew up and said, "hey, maybe love does exist, and it does make people happy". yea. happy. all i can say is, maybe love can make you happy. but it doesn't always seem to last. my happiness cuz of love didn't even last me a year. gave me more misery instead. just when i thought that someone else's love towards me could help heal the wound my first love gave me, it stabbed me on the back telling me to get real. maybe i'm too sensitive. maybe i'm too emotional. well, i may be interpreting too many things wrongly, cuz i am just plain confused right now about everything. but lemme juz tell y'all this. being loved by lotsa people gives a good feeling, but don't play each and every one of them. you'll end up hurting yourself much more. if you were to tell a person you love them, say it directly. don't be too flowery. we ain't living in the Shakespeare ages anymore, so most people won't understand. if you don't love them, tell them directly as well. better to hurt them now then make them figure out for themselves that you don't love them after all. if people say they wanna remain friends, be grateful. It's better to stay as friends then to lose a friend cuz you're always asking for more. if you only wanna remain friends, tell them so that they won't keep false hopes on you. you'll just disappoint them, and that makes you a big jerk. if you love someone else instead of the one you're simply stuck with, juz let them go. don't make them suffer any longer. i learnt alot about love this year. being far from your hometown does teach you alot about things you thought that you knew. love DOES hurt. wondering why i'm blabbering about all this love stuffs? well, i'm not telling. let me just keep it to myself. =) just treat this post as one of my rare emo moments. perhaps i need to go watch some happy movie now. this post has no target, so don't feel targetted. it's just what i feel. no offense. all i can say is, i learnt my lesson. all of us has been jerk before, including me."
"Reality is wrong, Dreams are for real"
Chorus( Siti Nurhaliza )
How love can ever be
Right before my eyes
Still a million miles away from me
Verse 1 ( Malique )
They say love is blind, I say it blinds you
Tempts you off your sanity, abide by mind rules
The truth behind the myth it lies in our reality
Love is just a four letter word that’s sung in melody
To complete formality, you hear it when the ballads breathe
Every couple wants to be the next Cleo and Anthony
Or Clyde and Bonnie, or Frank butler and Annie
Mumtaz and Shah, Gina Montana and Manny
But this ain’t no love epic, I’m just a hopeful skeptic
Mischievous thoughts made poetic now spit it on record
I’m not in love with cha, I’m just in love at cha
Distant admiration, link and spoil the whole picture
I betcha a mil, you dancin’ in a million minds
A million times you handshakin’ from a million miles
And put a million smiles, a million different stories
And how we diff a million miles is self explanatory
Chorus
Verse 2 ( Joe Flizzow )
I sing this lullaby, forbidden love sitting before my eyes
My heart is screaming although nobody can hear my cries
Wishing on a star as I look into the night
Say a little prayer only God can understand my plight
Glimpses of her sight, flashing in my mind
Although she near the distance seems like a million miles
Somebody told me once that patience is a virtue
And true love is worth waiting for although it might just hurt you
And if it comes right back, that means it’s truly destined
I promise to hold back the tears, never say never
And I know you thinking of me all through out your endeavours
And if its part of His plans, one day we’ll be together
A few things last forever, so I write this poem
A lot of times, you won’t miss it right until it’s gone
And though I soldier on, these feelings in my heart
Will never change ‘cos I loved you from the start
Chorus
Verse 3 ( Malique )
We seen a lot of come
We seen a lot of go
But we ain’t seen a lot of stars who got a lot of soul
And keep their feet to the ground
Despite a lot soul truly unforgettable like old Nat Cole
It ain’t even about your look your style is debonair
The voice that stuns the nation when it comes on air
Expectations of intimacy was never there
But it would be nice to swap a couple hellos with the funny stares
But you just smile dumbfound when you come around
But little hushes now silence is the perfect sound,
Or whether this is fun or play ya
Just holler at your boy a million miles away
Chorus
" i used to say "i don't believe in love". but then i grew up and said, "hey, maybe love does exist, and it does make people happy". yea. happy. all i can say is, maybe love can make you happy. but it doesn't always seem to last. my happiness cuz of love didn't even last me a year. gave me more misery instead. just when i thought that someone else's love towards me could help heal the wound my first love gave me, it stabbed me on the back telling me to get real. maybe i'm too sensitive. maybe i'm too emotional. well, i may be interpreting too many things wrongly, cuz i am just plain confused right now about everything. but lemme juz tell y'all this. being loved by lotsa people gives a good feeling, but don't play each and every one of them. you'll end up hurting yourself much more. if you were to tell a person you love them, say it directly. don't be too flowery. we ain't living in the Shakespeare ages anymore, so most people won't understand. if you don't love them, tell them directly as well. better to hurt them now then make them figure out for themselves that you don't love them after all. if people say they wanna remain friends, be grateful. It's better to stay as friends then to lose a friend cuz you're always asking for more. if you only wanna remain friends, tell them so that they won't keep false hopes on you. you'll just disappoint them, and that makes you a big jerk. if you love someone else instead of the one you're simply stuck with, juz let them go. don't make them suffer any longer. i learnt alot about love this year. being far from your hometown does teach you alot about things you thought that you knew. love DOES hurt. wondering why i'm blabbering about all this love stuffs? well, i'm not telling. let me just keep it to myself. =) just treat this post as one of my rare emo moments. perhaps i need to go watch some happy movie now. this post has no target, so don't feel targetted. it's just what i feel. no offense. all i can say is, i learnt my lesson. all of us has been jerk before, including me."
"Reality is wrong, Dreams are for real"
in the mind of the cursed at..2:19 PM
0 people in the crowd heard my words
0 people in the crowd heard my words
New Day Will Come
They said, good people die young
hahaha, well, its not gonna happen to me !!
coz I'm bad to the bone !!
Shit, daydreams of ya dream days is over
New beginning create creams, keep ya head sober
server rollover, just delete the bugs
A new start, let the pain gone stark
Being stuck in dilemma, but that's for awhile
Break it and escape, be free to carve a smile
Don't be a ass-up but lift ya ass up and stand
Plan ya step, don't waste what u gonna spend
Believe in yaself, be ready to walk wat u gonna say
The journey still a long way, wake up its a new day
haha, yo I've been searching thru all friends friedster's, search for my uni pic, haha i found 2 lol
oh shoot, ufcking small lolx
hahaha, well, its not gonna happen to me !!
coz I'm bad to the bone !!
Shit, daydreams of ya dream days is over
New beginning create creams, keep ya head sober
server rollover, just delete the bugs
A new start, let the pain gone stark
Being stuck in dilemma, but that's for awhile
Break it and escape, be free to carve a smile
Don't be a ass-up but lift ya ass up and stand
Plan ya step, don't waste what u gonna spend
Believe in yaself, be ready to walk wat u gonna say
The journey still a long way, wake up its a new day
haha, yo I've been searching thru all friends friedster's, search for my uni pic, haha i found 2 lol
oh shoot, ufcking small lolx
in the mind of the cursed at..12:47 PM
0 people in the crowd heard my words
0 people in the crowd heard my words
Great day
haha i guess, today was a great day, after took a long sabbatical, I'm back fresh with fresh news to hear
1. my fren Pian got gurlfren already !! wootz, haha dat lucky gurl is my classmate too !! haha funny woo~ including him, there r 3 of them now, 3 couples in the same class, wakakak cam takder orang lain jer, neways, hope u guys happy always ^.^
so.. yang still single.. prolly just me,besar and wan xD, takper waktu kita akan sampai +_+ we keep on the wiser thought wakakaka
Masked Rider !!
small gym
2. Hmm. got test today lol, ufcking retarded questions lol, suddenly ask for application.. really no idea.. just do normally.. ok lar, can manage to answered it, but just.. not sure whether correct or not.. esp question 2 lol
3. I din plan to come back home today, but my mom gimme a call and said, my brother and my nieces !! gonna come, so i backpack and vrooom~! balik rumah xD
dammit, really miss my nieces !! well.. my bro was actually having some family probs.. but good to hear.. nth bad gonna happen xD, damn , i thought im not going to see them nemore !!
my nieces pics !!
1. my fren Pian got gurlfren already !! wootz, haha dat lucky gurl is my classmate too !! haha funny woo~ including him, there r 3 of them now, 3 couples in the same class, wakakak cam takder orang lain jer, neways, hope u guys happy always ^.^
so.. yang still single.. prolly just me,besar and wan xD, takper waktu kita akan sampai +_+ we keep on the wiser thought wakakaka
Masked Rider !!
small gym
2. Hmm. got test today lol, ufcking retarded questions lol, suddenly ask for application.. really no idea.. just do normally.. ok lar, can manage to answered it, but just.. not sure whether correct or not.. esp question 2 lol
3. I din plan to come back home today, but my mom gimme a call and said, my brother and my nieces !! gonna come, so i backpack and vrooom~! balik rumah xD
dammit, really miss my nieces !! well.. my bro was actually having some family probs.. but good to hear.. nth bad gonna happen xD, damn , i thought im not going to see them nemore !!
my nieces pics !!
in the mind of the cursed at..12:09 PM
0 people in the crowd heard my words
0 people in the crowd heard my words
Monday, October 20, 2008
Just had my lunch, a few min later, gtg to uni already
my dad going for his seminar today, at hotel seri Malaysia, and today my house got marhaban for female, @_@ so my dad.. prolly wont spend his night at home today
nothing much, but i guess i have a vid to share with y'all
well.. miracle can happen.. for someone who is somebody.. but but not me yo
my dad going for his seminar today, at hotel seri Malaysia, and today my house got marhaban for female, @_@ so my dad.. prolly wont spend his night at home today
nothing much, but i guess i have a vid to share with y'all
well.. miracle can happen.. for someone who is somebody.. but but not me yo
in the mind of the cursed at..10:36 PM
0 people in the crowd heard my words
0 people in the crowd heard my words
Morning~ i just slept for 3 hours +, but I'm fresh, haha..
i can even comes up with something stupid
but i don't know.. i really feel scared.. so sudden
I'm going off to university this afternoon, got class at 2
then i wont be able to online anymore, barely
If and if
something bad happen to me
i just wanna tell
to all my frens.. i really love ya, especially to my uni frens
i really love ya all, Al, pian, besar, radhi, afiq, alim, azwan, wan, K.E, akim, azhari, syed and lan
i really treasure u all mates, but just i cant really show it, i just feel like our social are different
i'm sorry if im not giving y'all my commitments, I'm sry if im not do my best on helping y'all, but really mates, i cant live this world without u all, i really love u all, and i really do
i promise mates, i'll will have some times with u guys instead of sitting at home gaming
Thx for everything mates, especially Al and radhi not forget besar and syed, u guys always inspired me to be better man, althou sometimes i misunderstood it as sarcasm, but i believe u guys wanna see me at the top too.. i love you all mates
i always do !
To all my frens that i got to know on internet
i love u all too, love is blind yo, and u guys prove it, althou we never see each other
but i dunno, why i have this love and care feelings towards u guys
thanx for everything, thx for chilling me, and share everything that u guys thru
I appreciate all my frens every single second
to beatrice, i really love u, u r the best beatrice
To skye, jolene, faiz, nix, nana, wai wai, zedar and mao, thx for enlighten my life
love u all so much
U ALL GOT WHAT I NEED !!
Cheers : Shaman aka Asakura aka Fazril aka Vergo
i can even comes up with something stupid
but i don't know.. i really feel scared.. so sudden
I'm going off to university this afternoon, got class at 2
then i wont be able to online anymore, barely
If and if
something bad happen to me
i just wanna tell
to all my frens.. i really love ya, especially to my uni frens
i really love ya all, Al, pian, besar, radhi, afiq, alim, azwan, wan, K.E, akim, azhari, syed and lan
i really treasure u all mates, but just i cant really show it, i just feel like our social are different
i'm sorry if im not giving y'all my commitments, I'm sry if im not do my best on helping y'all, but really mates, i cant live this world without u all, i really love u all, and i really do
i promise mates, i'll will have some times with u guys instead of sitting at home gaming
Thx for everything mates, especially Al and radhi not forget besar and syed, u guys always inspired me to be better man, althou sometimes i misunderstood it as sarcasm, but i believe u guys wanna see me at the top too.. i love you all mates
i always do !
To all my frens that i got to know on internet
i love u all too, love is blind yo, and u guys prove it, althou we never see each other
but i dunno, why i have this love and care feelings towards u guys
thanx for everything, thx for chilling me, and share everything that u guys thru
I appreciate all my frens every single second
to beatrice, i really love u, u r the best beatrice
To skye, jolene, faiz, nix, nana, wai wai, zedar and mao, thx for enlighten my life
love u all so much
U ALL GOT WHAT I NEED !!
Cheers : Shaman aka Asakura aka Fazril aka Vergo
in the mind of the cursed at..5:59 PM
0 people in the crowd heard my words
0 people in the crowd heard my words
in the mind of the cursed at..5:55 PM
0 people in the crowd heard my words
0 people in the crowd heard my words
Suicidal
I don’t know whether I should sleep or bleed
Or hang on the wall then taking off my seat
Whatever, I just wish I can stop from breathe
Misfit, the depression that overheat
The guns stick to the clip
Lights off, adios and that’s it
As been told that dying is full of pain
I’m just tired, sleepy without any red stain
Real thrill is none, I'm just sick and ill
I am the patient, so let the pill kills
Hallucinate, I see it all real
Meet the past people who no more exist
“Welcome to the Hades”, the word they insist
At the same time, I saw a light
It’s too bright, dazzling and cover up my sight
I heard a voice which keeps my name recite
I walk through, I saw an angel with wings open wide
I feel sudden fright, I ain’t ready for the judgment
Coz the angel doesn’t seems to smile, I ain’t go to heaven
Full of conscience and regret, im starting to cry
But its too late, suicidal it’s the end of my life
Or hang on the wall then taking off my seat
Whatever, I just wish I can stop from breathe
Misfit, the depression that overheat
The guns stick to the clip
Lights off, adios and that’s it
As been told that dying is full of pain
I’m just tired, sleepy without any red stain
Real thrill is none, I'm just sick and ill
I am the patient, so let the pill kills
Hallucinate, I see it all real
Meet the past people who no more exist
“Welcome to the Hades”, the word they insist
At the same time, I saw a light
It’s too bright, dazzling and cover up my sight
I heard a voice which keeps my name recite
I walk through, I saw an angel with wings open wide
I feel sudden fright, I ain’t ready for the judgment
Coz the angel doesn’t seems to smile, I ain’t go to heaven
Full of conscience and regret, im starting to cry
But its too late, suicidal it’s the end of my life
in the mind of the cursed at..5:54 PM
0 people in the crowd heard my words
0 people in the crowd heard my words
Good morning
Haha, i woke kinda early today.. eh not today, i mean Monday heh
nothing much, no class today, finished all my labs thou
Planned to get to the university in the evening
but fall asleep in the evening, so i'll just go tomorrow
duh, i really feel the heat of the exam, dammit, cant sleep well, but still slacking
oh that's me, haha
well, i really have a nice dream in the evening
i dream, my parents moved at a place, like an island
the house not that big, but its really comfortable, i can't express it and i couldn't remember how the place looks like, but it really nice
then, me and my family and some frens, prepare for some party
the party is like.. waiting for someone special to come
and i was so happy
but well, it just a dream after all.. im in a 3D mode now, reality that is
Well, starting tomorrow, i won't online.. haha got shit to do, study and assignments
haha, well, gtg ^^ enjoy ur life
nothing much, no class today, finished all my labs thou
Planned to get to the university in the evening
but fall asleep in the evening, so i'll just go tomorrow
duh, i really feel the heat of the exam, dammit, cant sleep well, but still slacking
oh that's me, haha
well, i really have a nice dream in the evening
i dream, my parents moved at a place, like an island
the house not that big, but its really comfortable, i can't express it and i couldn't remember how the place looks like, but it really nice
then, me and my family and some frens, prepare for some party
the party is like.. waiting for someone special to come
and i was so happy
but well, it just a dream after all.. im in a 3D mode now, reality that is
Well, starting tomorrow, i won't online.. haha got shit to do, study and assignments
haha, well, gtg ^^ enjoy ur life
in the mind of the cursed at..10:16 AM
0 people in the crowd heard my words
0 people in the crowd heard my words
Dream
It was all a dream
I always imagine the scene
Be someone I never been
A hero, a king, all the best things
Get laid with my love and my flings
Like the fairy tales, I’m the charming prince
Ride on a horse, rescue my princess and reign
Fight in wars and battles, I definitely win
Like the console game, all under my command
Name it and I’ll get what I want
But the sunlight penetrate through my eyelid
Burnt all my dreams and leave me in bleed
The pain force me to wake up from this sleep
The unconsciousness was too deep,
That is when I felt the heat
Flip my lips, beat my cheeks
I ain’t dreaming no more
In vacuous, I stand with my feet
But I’m just too weak
I keep on falling
The pressure depressing
So I crawl to bed back
Under the ceiling fan
Reality is pain
Please, let me sleep again
I close my eyes and having a different dream
About a palace and I’m the king
And having an angel as my queen
The palace located at a place full with snow
But it’s aint at artic, there is no Eskimo
It’s a different world
The world which only me and an angel
I knew it was a dream, but somehow I felt it real
Prolly the winds hit my bone and turn it chill
So the story begin at an angle of the castle
A pigeon as a messenger from the angel
With her wide wings, she stays floating
The King being hypnotized, keep on chasing
The crickets keep singing, until I heard the rooster
On 3 and 9 or something and when the sun rise
Try my luck by rolling the dice
Rolled the same number twice
I got it, I caught her
The date that I would never forget in September
She lifts me fly with her high to the sky
Clear views as the bird eyes
Watch the world from another level
But I’m too heavy for her to handle
Such a burden, she loosing the grasp
In frighten and shocked, I exhale my gasp
The crown is gone, the height shortened
With the feather of an angel, I’m falling down
I couldn’t think much now, I’m seeing the ground
Prepare for the crash, I’m praying hard
How could she do this to me?!
Everything is falling apart
I’ve lost my direction, my direction is ..
I feel the friction now.. I just hold my breath
……………………………….
………………………………
Flip my lips, beat my cheeks
Thanks God I still can stand on my feet
I never knew that the dream can be this pain
Let me wash my hands, I never sleep again
I always imagine the scene
Be someone I never been
A hero, a king, all the best things
Get laid with my love and my flings
Like the fairy tales, I’m the charming prince
Ride on a horse, rescue my princess and reign
Fight in wars and battles, I definitely win
Like the console game, all under my command
Name it and I’ll get what I want
But the sunlight penetrate through my eyelid
Burnt all my dreams and leave me in bleed
The pain force me to wake up from this sleep
The unconsciousness was too deep,
That is when I felt the heat
Flip my lips, beat my cheeks
I ain’t dreaming no more
In vacuous, I stand with my feet
But I’m just too weak
I keep on falling
The pressure depressing
So I crawl to bed back
Under the ceiling fan
Reality is pain
Please, let me sleep again
I close my eyes and having a different dream
About a palace and I’m the king
And having an angel as my queen
The palace located at a place full with snow
But it’s aint at artic, there is no Eskimo
It’s a different world
The world which only me and an angel
I knew it was a dream, but somehow I felt it real
Prolly the winds hit my bone and turn it chill
So the story begin at an angle of the castle
A pigeon as a messenger from the angel
With her wide wings, she stays floating
The King being hypnotized, keep on chasing
The crickets keep singing, until I heard the rooster
On 3 and 9 or something and when the sun rise
Try my luck by rolling the dice
Rolled the same number twice
I got it, I caught her
The date that I would never forget in September
She lifts me fly with her high to the sky
Clear views as the bird eyes
Watch the world from another level
But I’m too heavy for her to handle
Such a burden, she loosing the grasp
In frighten and shocked, I exhale my gasp
The crown is gone, the height shortened
With the feather of an angel, I’m falling down
I couldn’t think much now, I’m seeing the ground
Prepare for the crash, I’m praying hard
How could she do this to me?!
Everything is falling apart
I’ve lost my direction, my direction is ..
I feel the friction now.. I just hold my breath
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Flip my lips, beat my cheeks
Thanks God I still can stand on my feet
I never knew that the dream can be this pain
Let me wash my hands, I never sleep again
in the mind of the cursed at..10:12 AM
0 people in the crowd heard my words
0 people in the crowd heard my words
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Oh well, wat a plain day, Saturday
Woke up at 9, hunt some dead branches, then i logged in to my Granado Espada, lol, still in jail, fuck it, but those servers merge thou, prolly will re-play dat game later on my holiday
then i cook breakfast, 3 sausages and i left 1 for mom.
As usual, with my GH community, we play summon, i guess today we've summoned around 30 plus MVP, haha.. then i go off to sleep at downstairs coz my mom said, some1 gonna come to our house. yeah they did came, but i was asleep.. din really hear the ringbell lol althou i slept at the living room @_@
forgot wat time i woke up.. then play RO again.. haha nothing much, chit chat, kill MVP.. dats all
plain life.. i really wish to have some adventure life.. but im not dat high-endurance type of person.. my life so empty.. so passive after i moved here
No wonder Val commit suicide after so depress being in NY.. but after all.. i still have frens to keep my faith and love alive.. haha love.. love is weird and its totally blind
i told my best fren everything bout wat happened to me, haha i guess she the only who can understand me.. beside my wack rhymes, at least i feel quite relief after tell it out, love u w3n ^.^
Piece of a cracked egg, cant never join together
The wound prolly healed, but the scar stay forever
Water and sand will never merge
That is how God form this earth
Woke up at 9, hunt some dead branches, then i logged in to my Granado Espada, lol, still in jail, fuck it, but those servers merge thou, prolly will re-play dat game later on my holiday
then i cook breakfast, 3 sausages and i left 1 for mom.
As usual, with my GH community, we play summon, i guess today we've summoned around 30 plus MVP, haha.. then i go off to sleep at downstairs coz my mom said, some1 gonna come to our house. yeah they did came, but i was asleep.. din really hear the ringbell lol althou i slept at the living room @_@
forgot wat time i woke up.. then play RO again.. haha nothing much, chit chat, kill MVP.. dats all
plain life.. i really wish to have some adventure life.. but im not dat high-endurance type of person.. my life so empty.. so passive after i moved here
No wonder Val commit suicide after so depress being in NY.. but after all.. i still have frens to keep my faith and love alive.. haha love.. love is weird and its totally blind
i told my best fren everything bout wat happened to me, haha i guess she the only who can understand me.. beside my wack rhymes, at least i feel quite relief after tell it out, love u w3n ^.^
Piece of a cracked egg, cant never join together
The wound prolly healed, but the scar stay forever
Water and sand will never merge
That is how God form this earth
in the mind of the cursed at..3:54 PM
0 people in the crowd heard my words
0 people in the crowd heard my words
Friday, October 17, 2008
17/10
Well, I didn't sleep for the whole night @_@, took my shower at 7.10 am and wash the toilet (quite dirty) , prepare everything for 8.am class, eat my breakfast but couldn't find the bread so i just eat the sausage with sauce
8.00am i reached the class, the door still locked, after 2-3 mins, the technician came and unlocked it.
Transport Process class, the last class for this sem, dammit.. i miss many things, time flies so fast, i really need to study, next week i got 2 tests and some assignment to hand up, I've slacking all the time, these things make me think that i shouldn't waste my time on games nemore. I need to seize my opportunity, i gotta study for my future haha.
well, as usual, every Friday i will go to mosque to perform Solat Jumaat. Lucky the rain only fall after the prayers done, such a heavy rain caused my dad didn't go to post office to pay some bills. well as usual, i skip the evening class, heavy rain didn't let me ride. so i just sleep the whole evening, and i didn't on my comp coz of thundering.
8.00am i reached the class, the door still locked, after 2-3 mins, the technician came and unlocked it.
Transport Process class, the last class for this sem, dammit.. i miss many things, time flies so fast, i really need to study, next week i got 2 tests and some assignment to hand up, I've slacking all the time, these things make me think that i shouldn't waste my time on games nemore. I need to seize my opportunity, i gotta study for my future haha.
well, as usual, every Friday i will go to mosque to perform Solat Jumaat. Lucky the rain only fall after the prayers done, such a heavy rain caused my dad didn't go to post office to pay some bills. well as usual, i skip the evening class, heavy rain didn't let me ride. so i just sleep the whole evening, and i didn't on my comp coz of thundering.
in the mind of the cursed at..6:30 AM
0 people in the crowd heard my words
0 people in the crowd heard my words
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Burn it down
U burnt it down like a gasoline,
I’m in the heat, pain and sufferin’
The Pyro spinnin’ cage me within
As I’m trapped in the flame
My heart screamin’ through this realm
Like the space of vacuum
No one gonna hear the volume
But life must resume
Even the pain it’s consume
Combustion of this relation
It burnt me down like the oxygen
This incident, turn me into a Pyrophobia
Dun play with fire, without any extinguisher
Dun playing in the bush, without a proper shoe
Dun test a mountain without the tool
I be such a fool, living in this dream
Fly so high, someone clipped my wings
Until I’m falling down
Until I hit the ground
And that’s when I realized that the world is round
Nothing lasts long, when u up, u gotta turn it down
I just learnt my lesson from this school of life
To make a better man and a better way to survive
But I’m the cinder, the sinner who burnt to ashes
I deserve this, the judgment from an Angel that I crashed
in the mind of the cursed at..2:53 PM
0 people in the crowd heard my words
0 people in the crowd heard my words
I got my key, so lets start the engine
Well, the purpose i create this blog is to improve my English, as a lubricant to move my muscles to write something and as a medium to burn my feelings and let it out.
Labels: Kickstart
in the mind of the cursed at..6:57 AM
0 people in the crowd heard my words
0 people in the crowd heard my words